Anonymous Palestinian Googler:

Something I have exceptionally struggled with is Google's apathy towards the suffering that it benefits from and profits off of. I joined the company around the same time as Israel's latest siege of Gaza in May of 2021. The calamity-induced doom-scrolling made it difficult to focus on my onboarding. This persisted for a couple weeks before our CEO Sundar gave a stanceless show of support to all Googlers affected. It hurt when the messiness of the situation exonerated us as a company, as it seemingly always does, from any pursuit of justice or accountability. And so naturally it hurts even more when Google takes obvious stances against aggression and suffering as it rightly did with Russia's invasion of Ukraine but not with the abuses that directly affect my family. It would be one thing if we as a collective simply didn't know better, but we do: countless employees have tried to speak out about the same violations the Palestinians have endured and have been intentionally ignored. So when opaque military contracts arise like Project Nimbus, it makes me feel overwhelmingly like my and my family's suffering are a known and accepted byproduct. It makes me feel like social causes are only taken up by Google when there is no real possibility of backlash. It makes me feel, despite all the time I spend trying to convince myself otherwise, like I am working for the bad guy.